During most of my teens and twenties, I took life and myself way too seriously. I was a sensitive soul growing up in a fear-based environment, where following the rules and fitting in mattered more than asking questions or finding my own rhythm. I learned early how to be the “good girl,” how to blend in, and I often felt disconnected, mostly from myself.

After university, one of the bravest things I did was step into the unknown and leave behind almost everything familiar. Now, at 32, as a solo mom who has lived, worked, and wandered all over the world, I can honestly say I love life. The totality of it. Every shade, every season (even though, in the middle of it, I sometimes forget). It can still be very messy (!!), but overall, it feels much lighter and freer. Reconnecting with my playful, creative self made all the difference.

I’m aware this isn’t a unique story at all. Feeling a bit unsure about direction in early adulthood is normal. And I’m sure it doesn’t magically stop when you hit your forties or later, because life is, well… weird and unpredictable. Maybe it never really stops. It just becomes something you learn to live with more gently. But that is another story.

Our generation, I am a 90s kid, is out here trying new paths and breaking free in ways previous generations did not. One thing I wish I had realized sooner, and what many of us still overlook, is how much creativity can actually change the experience of life, or at least make the ride more joyful.

Once I realised that, I started creating more myself and building a toolbox of creative exercises and playful mind experiments along the way. This project is where I share my art and what I’m learning. I’m also intending to host creative events in my (relatively) new hometown, Amsterdam, and slowly build a community of like-minded people. If that resonates, feel free to reach out.

So whether you’re here to read my posts, are interested in my paintings, or want to connect personally, I’m glad you’re here. And I look forward to turning this into a two-way conversation.

Much love,

Stef